I think I have a number one choice for college.

That scares the hell out of me. I don't bare well with disapointment, and I fear disapointment here.

I can't even justify the field I want to go into, its a gut instinct, and I don't second guess them. People question you when you say you are going into Law. But genetics just gives you a pat on the back and an impressed look.

Make me explain why. It's not our actions but justifications that make us interesting and worthy. I hate how people don't get that.

Especially in IR, I think this class is going to make me explode. Why can't I have the smart interesting person in my class that I can listen in awe to? Where are the smart people of MUN of my generation? (or am I supposed to play this role? egotistical comment and all) Instead I have a class that thinks the term "Big Brother" is a good thing. I mean really, IR =/= to blow off. Why would you think that? But the insanity of the people, it's worse than AP Govt, and that's saying something. And if you are going to be the arrogant jackass that thinks the world revolves around you and your hummer and that you are the shit, realize that the people you try to assert your superiority over don't care, we just want our educational worth, as nerdy as it seems.

I am learning so much about the world.

So what is it? Does the world view motives or actions
Do ends justify means or do the means justify ends.
Please, disillusion me, I need it.